Faithful Friday / Jesus = My Goal

This is one of my Holy Spirit Whispers blog I wrote 4 years ago. I felt I was supposed to share it with you guys. I pray that it blesses you! . . .

I had a beautiful experience with Sweet Jesus yesterday that I want to share with you. Mainly, I just want to get it written down so I will always remember it and can revisit this gold nugget should I ever need to. But you are welcome to come along on the recounting of my journey.

I recently had a recurrence of an on-going trial that has assaulted my life over the past few years. I’m not going to share the specifics of my trial because any recurring trial, thorn in the flesh, or resurfacing problem would apply. Just fill in the blank with your trial and see if it applies to you.

Looking face-to-face at this monster again , I felt trapped, hedged in, confused, and hurt. Trapped because here I am again, and I can’t change or fix this. Hedged in because there was no where to run to get away from it. Confused because God had not rescued me, and hurt because He had not delivered me — and I believed He had told me He would!

I came before Jesus and told Him that I wasn’t mad, but I was hurt because I had believed that He had told me that this wouldn’t happen again, that I wouldn’t have to face this giant again. I knew it wasn’t truth, but in my heart of hearts I felt like He had let me down. I didn’t know what to do with what I was facing in the natural, what I was feeling, and what I believe He had promised.

How many of you know that Jesus meets you right where you are at! In a vision, He begin reassuring me that what I had heard was TRUTH. Beseeching me to please believe Him and not believe my natural eyes or my feelings! Holy Spirit began to whisper,

“It’s only temporary! Just Believe Me, and Trust ME!”

My heart absolutely melted! I dropped everything (all the promises, all the Words, all the prophesies, all the gifts) and just ran into my Jesus’ arms and collapsed crying! Telling Him that even if He had lied to me (and I knew He had not) that I could not make it without HIM!

As I came out of the vision, I realized that with all the delayed, unfulfilled promises that I had withdrawn to some extent from Jesus being my Lover, and had went to the safe place of Him just being my Lord. I wasn’t being immoral. I was serving Him by serving others. I was obeying …. except the first commandment! “Thou shall have no other God’s before me!”

In my trial, I became so fearful of the wind and the waves (the unknown, uncertainties of not knowing) that I took my eyes off of Jesus and began looking to the promises and words that He had spoken about the future to give me peace. I stopped looking at the Prince of Peace and only to the promises He had spoken! Those are two completely different things! If I’m going after knowledge of future events so that the unknown will become known so that I will not be afraid, then I’ve missed my step and the waves will overtake me! Basically, what I’m saying in my heart is I need to know what’s going to happen to prepare myself so I can make it. Doesn’t sound like I was depending on Jesus does it?

Foreknowledge, prophesies, and promises had become an idol that I was looking to instead of looking to my loving Jesus! But you know what? There was no condemnation, no tongue lashing, just a sweet, “Welcome Back! I love you!” He is amazing!

Webster says a goal is the end or final purpose to which a person aims to reach or accomplish! I aim to reach and accomplish being conformed to Jesus as my only purpose for breathing. I want Him to always be Who and What I look to for my peace! My heart’s desire is that He is my GOAL! Not the things that He promises! Not foreknowledge of secrets that He has revealed! Just Him, and Him alone!

Shhh! Holy Spirit is whispering . . .

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